Why do we Run from ourselves!!

Why are we always restless and running after something? We cant sit quietly......with out distracting ourselves with some thought! Is it because when we sit quietly we are alone and we are faced with ourselves as we are and you find that you are empty, dull, stupid, ugly, guilty, insecure and anxious.. A petty shoddy, second hand entity, following second hand ideas.. and before that dawns on you, you have to close it down and run away into pleasure, work, achievement, ambition because inwardly your an ordinary man but its very gratifying to show of outwardly that we are successful, special, powerful, saintly and all that. Its hard to face that fact because if you have power and social status in this world your treated with more curtsy and a man who has nothing gets pushed around. So neither we nor the world would let us believe that we are ordinary to the core, when we accept this then everything man has built around it(cosmetics, crime, business and the rest of it) falls apart because every wanting desire of man is to become someone else, someone better, someone greater. This is also the cause of all suffering because there is always this insecurity of not full filling or arriving or becomeing that person society wants us to be.

As long as we wont let go of our desire to become so long we must accept fear of not becoming or arriving at our goal and all that.